Plains...Stripes...Prints: August 2010

Posted in silence Posted by Naga City Deck on Tuesday, August 10, 2010 at 8:47 AM

My patience was again tested during my last class tonight. Whoever said that it's always nice to look young is lame. As for my present situation, I need to look mature because of my work but my genes and bone structure does not agree with that. In the field of Psychology particular Guidance and Counseling, we were taught on how to be patient, mild, empathic and kind that I even forgot how to look furious (if the situation calls for it) especially in face to face interactions. Let's face it, we need to let rage conquer us when we need to be one. Acknowledge the rage to seek peace of mind. It's cathartic in a sense that it's a sort of a reminder of who you are and how others see you. It's not easy to be nice in front of everyone or inconsistencies will be labeled on you, right? It's quite unfair if others would link your life to your profession, we are just but humans to commit mistakes but again more is expected from us :(. This is a difficult task and more so of a difficult destiny. Sometimes I like to learn how it is to be mad..the facial expression, tone of voice, and the look of a fierce-full eye. Time will come for all these. The right person to show it too, the right place to take part in and the right time for it to occur. Worse comes to worse, I still pray that I do not reach this point for the time being.

I don't have the face to be mad, I don't have the loud voice to sound mad but i have silence to keep me calm.

On the Other Hand

Posted by Naga City Deck on Thursday, August 5, 2010 at 9:13 AM

July 24th was verging it's way towards my existence..on the other side of the life space, others were also revolving around the same minute and second where we are also living in. I will not pre-empt, I just interpreted it to something unexpected and unusual. I even said that I don't believe it. Well true enough, I just can't believe what I knew this afternoon. Feeling ko hindi yun totoo hehe which makes it soooo funny lng tlga. :))

One July 24th

Posted in purpose Posted by Naga City Deck at 8:34 AM

Another Saturday of administering an IQ test and personality test to our freshmen and transferees.

I was up around 6am, hoping that I would still be early for our (SSC CamSur) medical mission along with Diabetes Philippines Cam Sur Chapter as the primary sponsor. I managed to arrive at the Naga City Youth Center at around quarter to 7 in the morning. To my surprise, the hall was half full with people, mostly Diabetes-at-risk just like me or diagnosed with Diabetes already. I had to go to work around 7:15 for the scheduled test administration, so it means I didn’t have my FBS measured. I said that I’ll be coming back around 9 am for that… and so I did. The venue was almost empty and I was thinking that it’s now my chance to have my blood sugar checked. After a few minutes, sad to say there were no more strips for me. So there goes judgment day and come back another day. At around 10am, together with Kuya Pao, we went back to UNC and bought myself a tall hot White Mocha from Beanbag because I didn’t have my breakfast clearly because I was aiming for my fasting blood sugar to be checked. Went back to work and the test administration continued for the whole day.

morning coffee

I wasn’t able to eat lunch on time. Test administration still continued. At around 4:30 pm, as I transferred to and from another building, bringing all the test materials using Citie, I accidentally left the car keys on the driver seat. Yes you read it right, the car keys inside the car! I only noticed it after trying to check the key if it was on my belt about 25 steps away from the car.. then poof, the car locked up on its own. That my dear friends is a disadvantage of having an automated car alarm & lock system installed in your car. After closing the doors, count 15 minutes and it will lock on its own. This is somehow good for those who forget to lock the car anyway.

What were my options of getting the key?

1. Go home and get the duplicate key and remote OR have someone bring the duplicate key here at work. BUT, bad luck was here, Bem (kiakapatid ko) was charging her phone turned off, so she was clearly out of reach.

2. Sungkitin ang susi sa loob with a steel wire.

To my surprise, a sudden flashback came to me.

1. When I was at Beanbag, while waiting for the coffee I took pictures of the place and guess what, with no purpose at all that very second.. I also took a picture of the car key using my phone.

2. Before going down the car, I didn't close the driver side window all the way up, I left an open space for about 3 inches. What was on my mind then? So that the air would circulate inside the car para hindi mainit. This is routinary for me whenever I park inside the campus, but the difference was, I had it 3 inches open wide when compared to my ordinary open space of 1 inch.

Everything has a purpose!! Indeed everything! Again law of attraction is very strong.

Why did I take a picture of my car keys?? Why did I leave the window open for about 3 inches wide and not 1 inch wide.?

So what was the solution to my urgent problem? If option number two will not work by 5pm, I will go home to get the duplicate. When I was trying to contact my kinakapatid, mas lalong sumakit ulo ko due to my hunger. Tired, hungry, stressed and haggard looking moment. Naghanap ako ng steel wire sa office, as I was looking for the pair of scissors, again, walang gunting!! Nawawala! Hay this isn’t really my day. I asked help from our SA to help me look for a scissor, buti nlng may nakuha.

Sino pnasungkit ko? Si Jake at Mark (two of our peer counselors). Ang galing! Thank you talaga.

After getting the car keys, I sat down inside the car for a moment and rested for a while. Then I drove off once again to Beanbag to get another cup of coffee and something to eat. As time was running, I was also in a hurry to finish what I was eating and drinking. It was my breakfast, lunch and early dinner btw all coiled in one. What’s worse, I got a surprising headache because of hunger. First time ever!

Afternoon coffee

After having my snack, I prepared myself for my 6:30 to 8:30 class. Buti nlng di nagpasaway mga students ko. I even had a good laugh while discussing our topic. To my surprise, everytime I laugh, the forebrain will cut the crap and feel the pain. After dismissing my 2^nd class, I still had to drive off to Pili and fetch mom. It was a loooonnngggg day. A July 24 that I’ll never forget.

Got home at around 9:30 pm. As I was about to plug my notebook. Poof, I left my charger inside the bag of the multimedia projector at the office!!! May pahabol pa sa bad day ko. haha

To sum it up, I wasn't able to check my FBS, had a late breakfast, lunch and early dinner, left the car keys inside the car, left the charger for my notebook after work.

P.S.

Nag internet pa ako pagka uwi sa bahay then slept at around 11? Haha pasaway talaga. Tired but not sleepy yet. tsk tsk

PSP Prologue

I’m plain.. i’m stripes. and i’m printed

im plain with clear outlook to who i am. im not much of a talker because i am much of a listener, i like to scribble anything that comes out of my mind. sometimes i say it, sometimes i don’t, because there are things that should be left unsaid for others to realize that the absence of word will be enough for an asnwer. no matter how complex life is, i’d still like to live life plain and simple, because too much pre-occupation on the complex can make a person dull and stupid.

i live in stripes..vertical or horizontal.. there are a lot of ways to survive this life called reality. we may have the same coping mechanisms, but we differ on how we feel and react towards all those stressors in life. i live by my words by hit or miss, i stand for what i say.. sometimes life can be misleading because of mouths around us that can make or break us. be affected with what others say or be the effect of what you say to others. it’s a matter of how you strip in the stripes that crosses over your pathway.

i need some prints in my consciousness. i need your reactions to teach me how to live life well and to use my words in the utmost good way. we all need someone beyond ourselves who can pop our heads out to be awakened by reality. we all leave prints in the heart of all those we meet, as you leave prints in my heart, i’ll try to leave something in your heart as well. don’t forget that prints can be also be scars, so let us stay away from that.

Anything visible is powerful, what is Plainly seen, Stripes that crosses over, and Prints that leave marks. But the unseen in a person is something that we should learn, explore and understand. PSP and the unknown is what is within ME that makes me human enough to co-exist with you.

I am the me who can’t be you, but I can share my life with you.