Plains...Stripes...Prints: silence

Posted in silence Posted by Naga City Deck on Tuesday, August 10, 2010 at 8:47 AM

My patience was again tested during my last class tonight. Whoever said that it's always nice to look young is lame. As for my present situation, I need to look mature because of my work but my genes and bone structure does not agree with that. In the field of Psychology particular Guidance and Counseling, we were taught on how to be patient, mild, empathic and kind that I even forgot how to look furious (if the situation calls for it) especially in face to face interactions. Let's face it, we need to let rage conquer us when we need to be one. Acknowledge the rage to seek peace of mind. It's cathartic in a sense that it's a sort of a reminder of who you are and how others see you. It's not easy to be nice in front of everyone or inconsistencies will be labeled on you, right? It's quite unfair if others would link your life to your profession, we are just but humans to commit mistakes but again more is expected from us :(. This is a difficult task and more so of a difficult destiny. Sometimes I like to learn how it is to be mad..the facial expression, tone of voice, and the look of a fierce-full eye. Time will come for all these. The right person to show it too, the right place to take part in and the right time for it to occur. Worse comes to worse, I still pray that I do not reach this point for the time being.

I don't have the face to be mad, I don't have the loud voice to sound mad but i have silence to keep me calm.

Silence and Solitude (My Dear Best Friends)

Posted in judged, silence, solitude Posted by Naga City Deck on Monday, October 6, 2008 at 10:45 AM

Life has many things to offer for us to be happy but at the same time life has many things to offer for us to be sad.

The past can affect the way people treat u now. As for me, I am sick and tired of being judged but it just keeps on coming and even catching me unaware and unprepared. But I can accept that wholeheartedly. Sometimes we cannot trust “others” and even worse we cannot trust ourselves. That would be the exact moment when there’s only one person whom you can trust….. HIM…

That’s why as of now my best friends are silence and solitude. With them I can shout at whatever I want, scream at whoever I want.

Screaming and shouting in silence which keeps me strong as I endure all the pain of my existence is what I can tolerate at the moment.

Nways, thanks to those who showed their concerns.. u know who you are.. but I’m fine thank you. I mean it.

[17 February 2007]

PSP Prologue

I’m plain.. i’m stripes. and i’m printed

im plain with clear outlook to who i am. im not much of a talker because i am much of a listener, i like to scribble anything that comes out of my mind. sometimes i say it, sometimes i don’t, because there are things that should be left unsaid for others to realize that the absence of word will be enough for an asnwer. no matter how complex life is, i’d still like to live life plain and simple, because too much pre-occupation on the complex can make a person dull and stupid.

i live in stripes..vertical or horizontal.. there are a lot of ways to survive this life called reality. we may have the same coping mechanisms, but we differ on how we feel and react towards all those stressors in life. i live by my words by hit or miss, i stand for what i say.. sometimes life can be misleading because of mouths around us that can make or break us. be affected with what others say or be the effect of what you say to others. it’s a matter of how you strip in the stripes that crosses over your pathway.

i need some prints in my consciousness. i need your reactions to teach me how to live life well and to use my words in the utmost good way. we all need someone beyond ourselves who can pop our heads out to be awakened by reality. we all leave prints in the heart of all those we meet, as you leave prints in my heart, i’ll try to leave something in your heart as well. don’t forget that prints can be also be scars, so let us stay away from that.

Anything visible is powerful, what is Plainly seen, Stripes that crosses over, and Prints that leave marks. But the unseen in a person is something that we should learn, explore and understand. PSP and the unknown is what is within ME that makes me human enough to co-exist with you.

I am the me who can’t be you, but I can share my life with you.