None

pure laughter.. annoyed.. tired.. but fun filled days

weird, unusual and questionable thought

will try something new this coming days

:D :D

Give me a question without an answer.

Walk the Talk

Just had a client today, he just left about 5 minutes ago. Everything was turning out fine. All I was saying was on the right track. Somehow, something hit me, I might be an effective counselor to others, but I'm not an effective counselor to myself. I'm not walking what I'm talking. :( This only proves that we, Psychology Grads or Guidance Counselors also need ears to listen to us. :(

Pacquiao vs Margarito Live Stream

PACQUIAO VS. MARGARITO Live Streaming Links

http://www.coolbuster.net/2010/07/pacquiao-vs-margarito-live-stream.html


http://fighthits.blogspot.com/2010/1...-stream-3.html

http://sagitnangbagyo.blogspot.com/

http://cirronetwork.com/stream1.html

http://www.hayag.com/w/gitnangsilangan

http://sportzonepr.net/ch2.html


http://www.yeheytv.com/video/12578/Pacquiao-vs-Margarito-Live-Stream

Red and Bangs

Just a quick one! :)

Red

and

bangs.

Little by little.
Step by step.
The clues are showing
Some time for believing

All I need is a few more
To bring forth the new door
Every sadness brings light
To anything that's bright

Smile I can see you
Laughter I envy you
Tears I despise you
Tight hug I adore you

hayy ang pula at ang bangs!! hahaha
ang pagkakataon nga naman. hihi

eto example haha

kala ko tapos na yung kwento na yun di pa pala. ma'am angz i like it! haha tagalang angel ka po sa office. wehehehe It was the month of May when ma'am angz shared it, kala ko tapos na  pero may added details pa pala. hahahaha almost after 6 months?? :D

fanget! me need to call you, di ko pa ngagamit yung free card ko. sayang din nun.
bear hugs for you!!!! >:D<

Anniversary

Today is the 1st death anniversary of Ma'am Gaile. The day she left us full of hopes and memories.

Ma'am Gaile, I know you've seen our testing room. I know it's not your dream testing room for the school, you and Ma'am Shie had planned for it for so many years. But at least we have it now beside the office and not anymore on the third floor right? That's still an improvement. My work and designation today was all because of you planned or not. Until now I could not help but think if is it really for me or was it because you left us. Please tell God I'm quite out of  focus this past few months. =(

We miss you Ma'am Gaile. Will visit you later with your family in Pili.

In Between

Welfare of the students or give in to the request? That is the question this afternoon.
If only I was not chosen by the students who requested the subject to be opened, at all cost, the load is his as he wish. I wouldn't mind giving it away after all it will be my pleasure to have no class during TTHS.

Another One

I get it Lolo Freud, you're so good in timing. I'm making my Final Requirements in one of my subjects in my masters. Yep, it's late, due to unacceptable reasons that I have with me, it's long overdue. As my tukayo said before "If deadlines can kill, I should be dead by now". I got caught up while writing my final exam, Freud's dream interpretation once again called my attention.

Last night, I barely slept for 3 hours and in that three hours I woke up for around 5 times! Too much I can say. No wonder Kuya Pao noticed that I have baggages under my eyes today. My unconscious is screaming, but of course I don't know what makes it scream. This morning, just like any ordinary day, I went to work with some confusions in me. I was driving when I recalled that I had a dream when I was asleep. In the dream, the brake of the car wasn't working no matter how hard I step on it. Thank God it didn't happen today or I'm praying that it won't happen in the future.

I believe this is still part of my recurring dreams but in a different perspective because I still felt the same fear like the ones that I had before. =(

WWW

What?
I've been warding off people away. But in two ways: Intentional and Unexpected

Why?
Intentional: Due to some reasons that might be too shallow for others but too deep for me.
Unexpected: It's a total surprise. It was crystal clear.

When?
This day was loud. Both here at home and away.

Who?
Friends intentionally warded off.
Family matters trying to hold me/us in my neck.

a heavy day indeed
can't sleep, my mind bleeds
time needs time
to let things be fine

Relapse

Thanks to my five years ago.. I learned how to be strong. But I guess when you learn a few things about life there are things that will go beyond your way. Something that you thought was over but still it's there. Yes, I'm having my relapses back. Reminding me how stupid I am and what it brought me up today. Yes I'm strong and yes I'm selfish. Selfishly protecting myself that even new friends I create brings me to no good.

I thought it was fun, everybody was enjoying every bit of the story they were creating. It brought them happiness but it brought me relapse. It's not every time when I'm laughing with you guys everything is always fine. I let it pass for months but still the same agony. I can laugh with them alright but this time it's bringing me not to my wit's end but thank you for reminding me for who I am.  I looked for means to compensate the laughter they were creating and sadness to myself but it was just not good enough. 5 years ago I swore to myself. Something I have with me now. It's full of hatred for others and protection for myself in any kinds of relationship. If it will bring me to another 5 years, hopefully it will be much clearer. What has been happening lately are my defense mechanisms in different kinds of ways. Being unpredictable to what is currently happening and being unmindful of what others are saying.

still have lots of things running through my mind!!