Listen To What People Don't Say

I was talking to ching last night and we were slightly talking about signs… and something popped out of my head... “Instead of wasting time searching and waiting for words...why not take a look at the signs? They might have been more true and honest” . These words are mere reflections of everyday life, what has happened to me and to the people around me. Sometimes we want others to say things right in front of us. Sometimes we want them to plunk out melodies of words that are good to hear but sometimes we end up listening to a holler of thunder that painfully strikes right in the center of our hearts. Sometimes we end up hurt and sometimes we end up in high spirits. Sometimes we overlook and assume things so that we would at least feel that everything is on our side. We defend ourselves denying about facts of life so that we would feel a little light. But behind all these hiding and encroaching what others might say or what we want others to say… why not take a look at the signs? They are not just the God given signs, others may say it blunt but some may show it in a non-verbal way. Some may act it as if it’s their only way but others want people to be sensitive enough to know what they really mean. Here I go again… talking about sensitivity stuffs and the like. I’m not gonna reiterate things about sensitivity. Guys, it’s just a matter of being keen to what people are saying and what they are not saying to us.

Just Another Stupid Dream

I hold on to nothing
As a matter of fact
I can’t hold on to something
All I have are my dreams
And during the night it gleams

My dream is so peaceful
We were not face to face, but
I can feel warmth of your hug
That even made me feel at a snug
I can feel the clinch of your hand to mine
That I can even cheer for a toast of wine
But all this does not leave me hopeful

And now I’m awake
Oh, it’s just a dream
Just another stupid dream
All I felt was true
And all the rest was fake

Amity to Animosity?

It has been years since I last cried copiously
I came and pass by your life. I stayed and I enjoyed your company.
Now I’m here trying to abscond your presence.

At first I was at a snug and apparently like a blissful melodious harp
Each day gave me the chance to open myself up to the world I kept on eluding
From the denigration that I got from my past life,
You made me realize that there are a lot of good things in life that I need to treasure.

Why am I crying right now as I see your funny face in my head?
Why am I crying as I hear your hilarious jokes and your evil laughter whenever we tattle about something?

I know you have your own life to take
And I am there to witness it; I was there when I witness it
I now feel that it was just for the meantime
That you and I were enjoying each other’s company
That you and I thought that our friendship will last as it is

But now, it’s only me who is deeming that there was something else in store for us
And the veracity is… there isn’t any
Our friendship has stopped walking to its destination
Coz its destination is the ended journey

Now what is left is me alone
Just to look back at you and your shadow as it nearly touches mine
Time has made it possible to allow us to live our own lives
Destiny has made it possible to grow in separate ways

It’s amazing how we shared our destiny once and left off in different directions
Was there a girth of realization that you are fleeing my presence too?
I just hope our amity will not turn into animosity.

[22 July 2008]

Acceptance

The sad fact about these two red peppers is that, both of them will never be together.

For a while they grew out from one root and one stalk and

they bloomed from flowers then became peppers from green to red.

It’s sad when people need to be apart from each other despite their closeness and similarities.

Acceptance is the only cure for this sad reality.

[07 April 2008]